I was finally off today and spent the day cleaning the house, then this evening Jeff and Emily came over. Jeff fixed our closet and then we had dinner together. I really wasn’t feeling well today and there’s nothing picture worthy to put in here…
I’ve been having a hard time lately. I miss Orlando, I miss my family, I miss my pets. Plus, I hate my job, this store has been nothing but a nightmare for me and I want to quit everyday that I’m there. I’m constantly on the search for a new job, but it’s hard out there. I put in applications everyday and barely hear anything back. It’s like Billy Joel says, “So the graduations hang on the wall, but they never really helped us at all, no they never taught us what was real.” And that’s how I feel. I feel like my bachelors degree did nothing but hurt me because every job I apply for I’m either overqualified or underqualified for. For entry level jobs, it’s…oh, you have your bachelors, you’re overqualified for this position, but for jobs in my field, oh, you only have your bachelors degree, we need you to have a masters. Then, working for the same company for the past 8 years has hurt me too. You would think loyalty would factor into the equation, but it doesn’t because then it’s…oh, you’ve only had one job, you have no experience, you don’t know how to do anything else. Funny, all these years I thought I was doing the right thing by going to school and keeping the same job, but apparently not. It’s frustrating and depressing all at the same time. I feel like I’ve worked my ass off all these years for nothing. And I just hate Plant City, there’s nothing here, it doesn’t leave much room for opportunity, even though I’m not limiting myself to just Plant City, I’m searching all over…Lakeland, Brandon, Tampa and anywhere in between. Then, this whole living together thing isn’t all it’s cracked up to be either.I feel like we’ve turned into this boring couple. We used to go out and do stuff all the time and have fun and now it seems like we don’t. I feel like we’re too young to be this old. And I just feel like I’m missing everything in Orlando…I missed Alive after Five, my friend’s going away party, and rocking out with friends and family. I just feel like I’m missing so much and it’s hard. I guess I’m just feeling homesick…